Day 1

I didn’t sleep a wink last night. My husband decided to sleep downstairs with our monkey, but again got next to nothing sleep wise. They also didn’t come to do my bloods and I asked for pain relief and had to wait an hour for them, despite hitting the call bell 3 times and being told someone was coming. I was in agony. I was meant to be going downstairs to see him in NICU but the nurses weren’t sure if I could with my catheter in so were going to ring and ask then get me a porter. Didn’t happen, I just got left…

So when I was told would be mobilised by 11am so the catheter could come out and I could get down to my baby straight away, I didn’t hold out much hope. In fact they still hadn’t mobilised me when my dr came up to check in. She came back later and I still wasn’t up, so she decided to try and help get me up, but without painkillers. I sat at the edge of the bed and went very hot and light headed so decided it wouldn’t work without pain relief.

An hour later and I’ve still not had oramorph or been able to get up.

1PM and I am finally up! Been to the toilet and had my catheter removed. So get to go down and see our little munchkin now!!!! Can not wait, this has been excruciating.

Not been able to get him out for cuddles but seeing him was nice. It takes a little bit if adapting though. Initially I hated it and didn’t want to be in there, just wanted to get out of there. Seeing my baby hooked up to lots of machines and unable to give him a cuddle or hold him was just horrendous. But forced myself to stay and keep holding his hand. My husband said it was better to where he had been the night before. he hadn’t realised it, but the night before he had been in intensive care with one on one care from the nurses.

As I stood up, I bleed all over the floor, a gush that didn’t stop. The NICU staff were worried so ran me upstairs and called ahead to let them know. But the midwives weren’t concerned at all, told me to go to the toilet and they would come check later. Despite ringing the buzzer no one came to check, so I just made sure it didn’t continue and put extra pads in.

I was exhausted and so was my husband. He needed to get a good nights sleep so I sent him home to see the twins and have a proper sleep. Then knocked out myself sleeping through until 6am.